The year flew by and here I am still sticking to a resolution I made 3 years ago; Not to make any resolutions ever. It helps, resolutions are just a random word you throw into thin air, not even close to a promise.
Goa was my refuge from my twisted life in Mumbai. That's what I actually thought till I got there. There was something different about the place I called HOME. It no longer felt welcoming. Anyway I thought probably that was because of the 12 hour journey which induced severe motion sickness. I met all the people who supposedly knew me the best. It felt good to see them somehow it felt weird coz there were a few new additions who actually belonged in the inner core of the circle.
My best friend Tanvi, has a new boyfriend. I'm happy for her, but a few things have created a massive mutation in her character. They fight a lot, she gets equally upset every time ; I assume it strengthens their bond. The whole relationship lacks something concrete, which is why I'm not convinced about HER being happy.
My ex boyfriend, Siddharth, man oh man, He's hot!!! He stands apart from the entire 'all- men- are- jerks' junta. Still the carefree attitude with a whole new tonne of maturity, I fell for him all over again.
Tara, my 'certified bitch for life' (in the sense our bond is too strong to be tampered with) is the only survivor amongst the other folks. Battling exaggerated expectations from her family she's the only person who still stuck to science. I'm so proud of her. The pressure could've crumbled anyone.
It seems like a happy world down there, but a conversation with Siddharth made me realize how things are as screwed up for them as they are for me. Tanvi and her boyfriend have some really major issues, which can actually shake the foundations of their relationship. Things she doesn't know about him and things he refuses to acknowledge about her. Stuff like this can actually ruin their life.
Tara is crumbling, but not showing it. Rumors, bad relationships, pathetic boyfriends are actually showing their effect now and she is resorting to impulsive measures.
Siddharth can't do anything without his mother's consent. Things got really bad ever since his mother kept a tab of the going- ons with him and his girlfriend(s).
I crave to go back and live there. Something very solid convinced me, I won't fit there anymore. I lead a completely different life here. I have different issues, different controversies floating around me and different problems to fret about. No matter how much I crib about being away from my old life, somewhere deep down I know I'm happy to not live there anymore. I realized so much about people here, about people I called friends. People change,for good; their lives change for the better.
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Now playing: Led Zeppelin - What Is And What Should Never Be
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Wednesday, January 2, 2008
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